November 19th: Dark Place

empathy: the ability to understand and share the feelings of another.

I am in a dark hole – and I am trying to get out.  Brené Brown’s video about empathy has really spoken to me this year.  On January 13th, 2017 someone I tremendously care about attempted to end their life and failed (insert HUGE sigh of relief here).  In the aftermath of this event, I have become more aware of my own issues that I need to deal with personally.  I’m anxious….I always have been. This event not only made me realize that I need to support this person, but it also made me realize that I need to take a step back and focus on my own mental health and my own issues with anxiety, instead of just brushing it off as “I just worry”.  This past year has thrived on my ability to worry – so much in fact that it has left me in a dark place that I am tirelessly attempting to get out of.  I have been left in the shadows to reflect on what has happened, not only through this past year, but what has led me to burn out and end up where I have.  I am trying to learn how to move forward so that this event does not label any of us, but in turn brings us closer together to stand on a stronger foundation built from the rubble of January 13th.  I am my own worst enemy and need to start loving myself.  I may not be “okay” (whatever that means) right now – but I will be.

Below you’ll find the Brené Brown video explaining what empathy is and my explanation as to what I am trying to do to get out of this dark place.


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